the Seed is changing
It’s that time of year where I start to get reflective about my business and my life.
I make a point now of sitting down and thinking about the things that I have enjoyed over the year and the things that I feel have run their course. I do this as a whole life thing using this journal by
.For so many years I continued to do things in my work and at home because others wanted me to do them.
I stayed working in forensics for 3 years too long, even though it was damaging my mental health almost beyond repair, because those closest to me told me it would be a shame to give up on all my hard work (and 2 degrees).
I got diagnosed with ADHD in January 2023 and it made me realise how i’d been masking my true desires for so much of my life, so that I would ‘fit in’.
And no matter how much I tried to bury all these wants and needs they weren’t going away. Getting that diagnosis made me reassess how I live my entire life. Terrifying and freeing all at once.
So I started to slowly peel back the mask and bloody hell that thing is like an onion- layer upon layer of it.
I still catch myself masking daily, but my awareness of it now is so much better. That means I can sometimes work up the courage to ask for what I want. I say sometimes because as an ADHDer I really struggle with rejection sensitivity dysphoria (RSD). Which is when rejection or even perceived rejection can feel like a physical pain. And so, until now I have done everything in my power to avoid the rejection, including masking my true feelings and burying my needs.
I have been running the Seed for over a year now. And in that time have sent out weekly activities to paid members that are all stored here. To help you stop overthinking and actually get out in the garden.
When I sat and wrote the list of things I wanted to take forward in my business. I realised that I wanted to write more from the heart and write on topics that encourage conversation. Because when women discuss the big topics in life, their struggles, their successes and the things they want to change. That is where the magic happens. That is what I want to create here with the Seed.
The weekly activities will not be going anywhere and you’ll be able to search for the month we are in and do the activities suggested. They just wont be being sent to your inbox each week.
Instead i’ll be sending a weekly post. One post a month will be free and the remaining posts will be behind the paywall in order that I can create a space that is safe for us to discuss the things that are important to us as women who are determined to make a change in this world. Because change starts with us, but it can feel like too much to do it alone, so the Seed will be your place to join the rebellion against the patriarchy and all the ways it keeps us stuck, exhausted and quite frankly, miserable.
I’ll also be doing an occasional themed Q&A in the chat that will be free to all, designed to remove those blocks around gardening and actually get you out there.
But my big focus for 2025 is going to be in person work. I love being around other women and although the wonders of the internet have bought us together there is nothing like a real life hug!
Gardening has saved my life on more than one occasion. Helped me navigate new motherhood, grief, bullying at work and continues to help me unpick the constraints that society has placed on me and that I have also placed on myself, so that I can live my life with more freedom and joy.
If you would like for gardening to do the same for you or you’re just fed up with looking out on a bland patch of dirt then reply to me here and let’s chat about how I can support you to do that.
I have packages to help you transform your space across 12 months, give one area a glow up or that will help you learn to care for the space you already have. This is my brand new package that came about because I realised that when you have so much that you’re already juggling, transforming your garden feels like a step too far. You just want to be able to keep on top of it and not feel that pang of guilt every time you look out the window at it. That’s what you’ll learn to do in the Seasonal sessions.